A new perspective.

After one day of trying Babywise, I'm throwing it out the window...at least for now. I have realized several things. 1. Calvin is WAY too young to be left to cry it out. It just doesn't feel right to me, and I'm going with that gut feeling because that's all I know to be true in this moment. 2. There are so many books that claim to have the best sleep methods. All contradict one another. I'm bound to be following one of them, anyway. 3. Right now the most important thing is that Calvin is nourished and loved. Rest and naps will come with time. And, he's a pretty awesome night sleeper, so we've got that going for us. Which brings me to 4. We are really lucky overall. He's an amazing kid and goes to sleep at 7p.m. to give Angus and me the night together as a couple. It's nice because it's easy to forget, in the midst of all this crazy, that we are still a couple. 5. Every couple of days I start freaking out about something - usually because of a comment from a friend, a website, or a book. I spiral about it for a day and come up with some sort of elaborate plan. Then, I become so stressed that I get a headache and am driven to have a drink at 5p.m. The next day, I wake up completely renewed and realize how ridiculous I was the day before. I always come back to the same answer, "Let's do what works for us and Calvin," and more often than not, it was just what we were doing before I started freaking out. 6. It is SO necessary to get out of the house at least once every day. 7. I have an amazing husband who is very tolerant of me distracting him from his work. 8. I am really hard on myself. 9. I need to chill out and just enjoy my baby and who he is today. 10. I am doing the best I know how, and gosh darn it, I'm a good mom.